Thought that i would add to this thread, rather than start a new one.

i'm struggling to cope. i don't feel too well. i know that i need to try & address certain things, but i find it very hard to, & feel that i need a lot more in the way of support. Support that i find very hard to access & source in my life.

i have written a long letter to the GP (Doctor) explaining my circumstances & worries with everything.

There is a lot of ongoing stress, worry & anxiety with family & all the dynamics. My mother is very unwell with alzheimers, & my brother has a lot of difficulties of his own, with a severe back condition, & issues with addiction. It is very hard to cope with it all some days.

i find it very hard to exercise, & i smoke a lot of tobacco. i get the basics done that i need to, but i know i also need to try & address my health. i spend a lot of time sitting around & on the computer. i do feel in a catch 22 with it all, as i feel that i need more in depth support to try & address everything.

Overall trajectory of my life - had certain difficulties in childhood, went through severe alcoholism & addiction, & severe schizophrenia/psychosis. Stopped all the drink/street drugs 12 years ago, & have tried to heal as best i can & build up a fuller & more independent life. Best that i've managed has been to remain relatively stable for the past 9 years, & maintain independent living.

i've lived alone 12 years & been single 15 years. It all gets very lonely sometimes. It's very hard for me to know what to do with a lot of things & where to go from here? i get a lot of fear, worry, anxiety & depression.

Really have had a hell of a life.