I'm so sorry that you have to go through this...
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Originally Posted by Hopelessly Hopeful
I asked her why the hell we couldn't just work through these issues together. That I should be able to be completely open and honest about everything, including feelings towards her. We should be able to work as a team to get through it and hopefully achieve a stronger relationship in the end. I told her it made me feel horrible that she wants to dump me on to the next person whenever things get too "real" for her. I also said I will have the same issues with any other T that makes me feel safe, comfortable, and trust.
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I think it is great that you managed to say all these things - that was really brave but also very helpful I think! But what did she reply to it? Did she address it anyhow? Maybe her reaction made you feeling bad afterwards?
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Originally Posted by Hopelessly Hopeful
I saw her tonight and came home feeling suicidal. Do I fear abandonment that terribly? I hate this feeling! Whatever it is! I feel like she is no longer my safe-haven and that I don't even want to go on anymore if that's the case. I can't imagine life without her in it. I only got through this month knowing I can go back at any time or call/text if I needed. To have it not be my decision? I can't handle it. I don't know what to do. I can't seem to pull myself together right now. |
I hate that feeling too... When I feel so bad after the session I just try to convince myself that I won't let my T have a control over me and my T cannot make me feeling so bad... Sometimes it actually works... I hope that you will feel better soon...
