Hi topgun, sorry you have been feeling lousy for so long. Up until the depression that started early August (2013) that I feel I'm coming out of, my bipolar depressions were only a couple of months at most too. After six months in this depression, I feel I'm improving somewhat, although I'm not totally out of the woods. It's been a long road though. Just know that you're not alone.

Keep telling yourself it's just an episode of depression. As you know, bipolar is characterized by cycles (if one is symptomatic at all). This cycle can't last forever for you, even though I know it feels like it.