You have come to the right place to find support. I'm Bipolar, too. I agree it may be a mixed episode and you need a psychiatist to evaluate you for possible medication. You will find this to be a great place to share and there is also chat rooms and private messaging. Hope you feel better soon.
When I get crazy my husband ignores me, too.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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