Again, thank you so much for your feedback. I appreciate everyone's input and support.

Since I was very distressed, I ended up writing my T an email (which I'd never done before, other than to ask technical questions).

The first part of the email was me making an argument in favor of Schema Therapy for my issues (the intellectual approach). Then, when I realized what I was doing, so I just straight out said that I'm in a lot of pain and I don't want her to give up on me. It was incredibly difficult to make myself that vulnerable, but the fact that is was through email, helped. I don't like feeling like I'm begging for help - but there it was.

She wrote back saying that she is nowhere nearly giving up on me yet (the world "yet" kind of unnerved me, but I'm very sensitive at the moment), and that she is sorry if in any way she communicated that. She wrote that she wants me to get better so she is considering alternative treatment options. She stated that Schema Therapy might be helpful and recommended I buy "Reinventing Your Life" by Jeffrey Young. She also wrote that we can speak before our session if I would like. (I feel no need to, but I appreciated the offer).

Her email made me feel much better. It's scary to realize how much power she has over me. But I feel like I can trust her.