I guess I'd like some insight; it has been years since I have hurt myself in any way; but I'm starting to think that my condition has gotten worse since I've stopped.
I don't want to romanticize self injury, nor do I want anyone else to hurt but it felt like the only coping method that could bring me back to reality in a placid and calm state. I want to validate it, like I feel I can- but I know that's selfish and guilt will keep me from doing it again...then it gets tangled in a web of what I want, what I feel I deserve and how it feels as if I'm always bending to what other people want of me...because it always feels like the people I guilt myself over are the ones who drove me to such a state to begin with.
I'm sorry if this was an insensitive post- I really am. I guess I just want some views. Are we just addicted to something wrong and immoral? Does anyone think that an open minded study should be done on this subject? Or am I just making a big deal out of nothing?