Wow mouse, sounds similar to me as well.

I don't get angry often at t but when I do, I have a really hard time letting it go to her. I may tell her I'm angry but say I don't know why etc. (which is true).

Once she said something mid-session, I got so angry my face turned red and I sobbed, heaved really because I cried so hard. She said, "ouch, I pushed a button somewhere, what button did I push". I couldn't articulate at that time what happened.

I left the session so angry and mulled it over for a week. I was up and down as to why. I was also mad that I didn't scream at her, or tell her off in a wicked way as I would probably do to someone else. Next session I returned and we talked about it and wow.....what an awesome session, one of the best.

So......what exactly do you do or say to tell your t you're mad??? I get mad but find it so hard to unleash at her, I find it so misdirected in that way. But, later become mad at myself for not doing it.

My t says it's ok for me to be mad or even mean to her. She says she is tough and she can take it. Sometimes I swear, she does stuff to make me mad, to incite my anger because its so inward directed and the angry feelings get us so much further in therapy if we can discuss....

I don't think you need worry about hurting your t. I'll even bet some people do horribly mean or rude things in therapy and t can take it.