Schizophrenia runs in the family. I have had idea before, that I may be somewhat psychotic, but in all honesty, I don't want to be diagnosed. I feel like I can work past it, maybe. The thing is day after day I hold myself back with this fear of being judged. I tried anxiety meds and they didn't work so well. Really sick of my mind being a prison.. Thank you for your feedback Aleej. I hope things are going good for you.