he contacted me today. asking how i was. i said good trying to make things look better than i actually feel. his response cool. so i ask him how he is doing and he said busy with work and gym time getting prepared for his vacation home to puerto rico. i really enjoyed our tiny talk. he never mentioned the new woman so i am happy about that. doesnt mean they arent still together and happy but at least i didnt have to hear about it.
only thing is i wonder why he bothered to contact me. it has been a week after all. is it just to make me think about him? does he miss me perhaps? questions im sure i will ponder. i know i didnt have to answer but i felt compelled to at least let him know i am ok.
my mind is at ease for a little while but only because of the contact. no more wondering if he will or wont. ha. now to start that mind set over.
i thank all of you for your input it has helped me have a clearer perspective. like im not going crazy and its all normal.
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How I long to be up rather than down, the eternal sorrow that I only escape for short periods. This must be how Persephone felt.
"Sleep. Those little slices of Death. How I loathe them." Edgar Allan Poe
Loving yourself must come first from there comes love for everything else.
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