I feel your pain. I too suffer from rages. Actually, before I came across this thread, I thought my rages might be something else other than bipolar as I rarely found anyone in support groups who knew what I was talking about when describing it.

I ended up calling it "hulking out" because it feels like I lose about 30 to 40 IQ points when it happens. I know what it's like, teetering on the edge of that cliff, right before you fall into the maelstrom of mindless anger of which there is no real escape. There is that split second where you desperately reach out and try to grab on to something, anything, that will anchor your mind. For me, sometimes, I can do it and stop it before it happens. But most times, well.... there is no stopping it.

For me, I really think my GF is a trigger. She does the same things over and over again that she knows causes fights, expecting a different result. I think I need to leave but I am in a tough spot with that. She has to want to leave. We are currently in a symbiotic relationship of sorts. I make the money, her name is on the apartment. So, she ether has to agree to leave, or I leave her high and dry unable to pay any bills. I won't do that. So, yeah. Stuck in an endless cycle of rages right now. Definitely know how it feels. Hang in there. Will keep you in my thoughts and hope for the best