Good evening, My husband and I and our 14 yr old granddaughter went out with a church group for dinner at a nice pizza place. It took me awhile to relax and get in the conversation, but not too chatty, just trying to be in a group and not by myself. I did well. Glad it was over, but glad I went. Tonight though feeling down and unsure. I saw by primary this morning and started crying, it just popped out, and she was concerned for my appt. with my psychiatrist. It is soon about 2 weeks from now. I go through this bouts all the time but this depression is the first time in a long time to catch me off guard and put me in a position of real self doubt in this late stage. I want to thank all of you who listen and pray and just for being here for me to vent. Hopefully I'll be a little better tomorrow and pray that I don't sit in the corner of the couch all day wishing I was surrounded by self pity. I don't want that. I want to be strong, self reliant, and happy. You should too and someday you'll reach that goal some sooner than others but it does come. Donna