I understand - many people may say they can do without it when they tried it- but they didn't make the unfortunate mistake of abusing it- it is really almost like cocaine at high doses- and a coke addict has incredible difficulty living sober for many years also.

You are not alone- I think psychostimulant abuse is a problem that is extremely underestimated - I think it may be a serious epidemic right now .

It's hard to live after abuse and there's not much that can be done except to find some purpose in life- something to keep your head up and your thoughts positive- and that only can come from you

Take care