What happened with that man, who happens to be his boss now, was just the worst of three of the worse years of my life. My grandparents had died, the whole family was broken and I had no more contact with an aunt I loved very much. I always said I had three mothers, but one had died, the other wasn't speaking to us and my mom who abandoned me during such difficult times.

We adressed all this in therapy, but I was doing so good, that they thought I was fine.

Yes, my mom betrayed my trust, but she has sufferred enough for it. I have been so much trouble, that she definitely has paid for it. And she just said it all wrong, because what she meant was that I put myself in danger, not what I thought. But, on the other hand, my mother seems to believe in anyone else but me. That was not the only thing she blamed me for, even when I had done nothing wrong. But we talked about it and I seemed to be fine.

Maybe this time I was so overwhelmed because for the first time in my life I have had a beautiful relationship with her, that I couldn't believe what I had done to hurt her. I knew she would be upset everytime I told her I have had sex, because I was young and I have always been her little girl. And I still am... But I also thought she would never catch me, so I guess I enjoyed making her suffer, believing I was making a fool of her, because deep inside I still hated her for not supporting me when I needed her.

But besides therapy, my mom and I have talked a lot, cried a lot, screamed and fought a lot over all these things. So I think that after a year of feeling loved and cherished, after a whole year of a very good relationship with her, I felt so guilty that I lost control. And I had to tell her what I did in the past just trying to take revenge. And to my surprise, she has been so understanding... I feel like crap now, I feel even worse, but now I know that my mother loves me, that she is so overprotective just because she loves me and she wants the best for me, that the only thing I can do is try and fix myself, forget, forgive and be happy with this mom I have had for the last year.

Thanks for your post. I needed to know that I'm not the only one who thought she had betrayed me then, because my therapist only tried to make me undesrtand why she reacted so badly. And I understand as grown woman, but... Sometimes we only need to hear that our feelings are justified.