Hi Tom I appreciate the kind words.

I was able to string together two positive days and it seems when I make a very structured list of basic tasks with one or two challenges I stay on task.

Im also very needy and when I don't hear from my friends I get hurt easily and I stopped talking to good friends a few months ago as they are bad replying messages. I decided to email and say a friendly hello and they both got back very excited, that made me feel better as I thought they threw me away, but they are just bad communicators so I need to lighten up and not get hurt when people don't respond to me when I reach out to them....