Yes I have had issues with abandonment at several different ages and stages, from a few different people. I've also witnessed it more than enough with other family members (cousins) my age. I can see how those child emotions are coming out now, with my therapist. It's not something I am oblivious to.

Due to the unique nature of our relationship, it's hard to believe certain feelings are pure transference. She allowed us to become much closer than T/client.
I know she doesn't only do short term therapy, because she has mentioned another client (never discloses identity) she has worked with for 3 years already and he has grown tremendously out of his depression. She tries to use his situation as an inspiration, I guess. I got irritated and told her to stop comparing my situation to others' because it could never be the same and I will not allow her to downplay my situation because she feels she has seen worse.

I know it is being placed on my T because she is the same age as my mom. They happen to both be extremely well-groomed, the same height, pretty, with a good sense of fashion. So it is very easy to feel transference. However the one thing that isn't the same is her personality. I have built a relationship with her based on both of personalities being compatible. Since day one, before I even dreamed of going to therapy, I have been in school to be a therapist. She ignited the fire even more for me and became a role model...Someone I could see future self through...That creates a lot of hopeful feelings for me. She knows this. She knows she has become a role model and she said she is proud to be that person for me.

This is all just confusing. It's so difficult processing it.