hello

first excuse my bad english iam forigner, i speak arabic and french, iam man from north africa , iam 38 never been married and never had girl friend , iam normal looking person bu shy and have no skills to seduce. my life is terribly empty even i tryed to change it by doing activities, so i found solution in masturbation wich i started since puberty non stop; somtimes i reach 10 times everyday because no love in my live and no sex, and no friends even i tryed to find them i failed. it hard to explain it.

i had big complex with size of my penis wich is 13.5CM or 14 Cm if i have strong erection, so after many years i lost my erecetion and my libido, even women please to me on street there is no excitement, i live in small village and hard to find women espacially iam so shy. Recently i started NoFap plan,i didnt masturbate since 25 days and i feel my brain in pain,and i dont have any libido . may be that take time but i dont know how much i have to stop to get back erection and my libido. i feel my self sleepy espacially in the night . somtimes i want to give up because i know i will never get married and i will never find women. im so poor and so shy .
People of my age they send their children at school and me im condamned to die alone. i went few tme in my live to see protitutes but not get any pleasure because they are not sexy and no serve custmoers very well. One time i use viagara i get hard but i didnt feel any pleasure so i went home and finish in masturabtion.

I dont know if sombody here can take my probelm seriously and help me .Thanks