it will be cloudy in my head but hopefully it will clear up later on today. i dont know what im so aggravated about but i am and nothing is going on. its like my brain keeps telling me everything is going wrong or something terrible is going on. i cant relax because my head wont let me. i finally fell asleep at 5 am but got up at 9: 30 this morning. i know im tired but cant go to sleep because my head and body wont let me. ive been off of my medication for 2 weeks now but in 2 days i can so get my script filled. i need to talk to someone but dont go c my dr til friday. i was sappose to call him yesterday but forgot.. grrrrr. i really need some help. i feel like no one understands me or even wants to. i dont cant talk to the person i live with because im scared ill say the wrong thing and get yelled at so i just hold my anxiety in. i feel like there r monsters in my head. i want this all to STOP but it wont. i want to cry. im sorry im all over the place but my head doesnt let me think straight. and i know thats how i am when i talk too. i live in a city and state where i dont know anyone except the person i live with and the thought of meeting or talking to strangers gives me panic attacks like u wouldnt believe. i just want to curl up in a ball and cry. i feel so alone.