Hi Rory! :-)

That is a scary thing when that happens. It does. I've been there.

The Paxil could definitely be a factor. Fallout from that can take a long time. So don't be hard on yourself. Those account for a lot of those outta-the-blue situations. But if you look back on the situation, there probably was some slight trigger.

Good news though! You don't HAVE to know what that trigger was. Don't worry about why depression strikes. It's an invader that sits in your home and watches for a moment when you are even slightly vulnerable, then it darts in with a mean right hook to your jaw. The best things are to not think about why you got hit but hit back by taking care of yourself: do something physical like push-ups or cartwheels or 20 jumping jacks. Or eat a carrot. Or SOMETHING besides giving that bastard depression any more room to turn your mind on itself.

Kick. It. Out.