i feel like crying and hurting myself all the time. i dont even know completly why im feeling like this. 3 of my best friends moved since school started and then the guy i like was all over another girl right in front of me, which was really mean considering he knows i like him. and i thought the girl was my friend, but she flirted back with him. and it hurt alot. and now the guys saying he likes being friends with me but doesnt want to date me. and he basically crushed my self confidence. i feel so insecure and i feel like im not good enough at all. and i hate how i get this upset over a guy. but then i went home and cut again. i know its not worth it but i did. and now i guess my grandpas in the hospital and hes not doing well. and i dunno everything just sucks lately. i want to cry all the time.