Right now I'm more depressed than usual since my friends and family have shown me how little they care about me by not saying anything about me being sick. Yesterday I went to the Drs. and I was told that I have the beginning stages of the H1N1 flu. A lot of people have died up here in N. Ca from it recently.

Don't worry though, I think that I caught it in enough time to get better. I was given some medication called tamiflu that was really expensive w/o insurance which didn't help matters. My husband seems like he cares about my health since he did get me some water when I asked him to and he told me to take some vitamin C.

Anyways, I wrote an email to my so called bff, a good friend, my sister, and my dad yesterday. I got NO response so far. It's very weird that I got zero response from my so called bff since she is not working at the moment. AND I called her too to tell her that I'm sick before I went to the Drs. a day or two ago! WTH?

I'm so mad since I was there for her when she was recently diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. Since then she has told me she had to be hospitalized for panic attacks. It sounds like her diabetes is causing this to happen, I don't know. She was on insulin for a brief period of time, but now that her blood sugar is more under control, she just takes a pill called metformin.

She is going through a difficult time now since she is unemployed, broke, in the process of getting divorced from her cheating lying husband of a year. She can't leave him now since they made a deal to stay together until he gets his green card. That was not her intention when she first married him though. Also, if she leaves him now, she'll have to move back in with her mom which she doesn't want to do.

She used to be a better friend, but not to long ago she said something a bit odd that is making think that she's really just a selfish person who is distancing herself from me. Perhaps it's out of jealousy maybe since I don't have to work, and that I'm married to a better guy who makes a lot more money? I don't know. Hopefully I"m wrong about that.

I'm really hurt by this! It's especially not like my dad to ignore me when it comes to my health! He's home most of the time, so this makes zero sense! We have not been close for awhile, but still, it's not like him not to care about me like this. My mom would worry about me, but that's it. Ugh! Only a few FB acquaintances wished that I'd get better.

Am I expecting to much from other people, or would you be upset too if this happened to you? I'm a great friend and when they're sick, or when they have a problem, I'm always there to listen to them! Even late at night or when they're going over the same old issue for the millionth time! I'm now usually the one who makes the plans to go out! I only have one other friend who might care that I'm sick, but that's it. I have a difficult time making friends due to having issues with depression, anxiety, and low self esteem. I don't get out much anymore either.

My bff told me a few times that I rely on other people to much and she insinuated that I'm needy and smothering at times. She didn't say that outright. I don't think that I am. I have given her space when she needed space and have even been OK with her not talking to me on the phone since she got diagnosed with diabetes and anxiety attacks due to the fact that she told me that she couldn't handle any additional stress in her life as it'd make her feel anxious and it might cause her to have a panic attack.

She told me that it hurts her to hear the pain in my voice when I talk about certain issues, especially with my husband. She then said that she can just communicate with me by email for now. I have suffered from anxiety for YEARS, and I never once got anxiety from hearing about other people's problems, so I think that she is lying about this and that she just doesn't care enough about me to call me when I'm down! I told her to get on meds, but she's sort of against meds in general unless she really has to take them.

I don't know what to think. I'm starting to think that she's full of crap and that she's being selfish. If I ignored her when she needed me, I don't think she'd like that, but it's fine for her to ignore me when I'm sick? WTH? I hardly hear from her anymore by phone. She did call me the other day, but I missed her call. She is doing better and wants to hang out sometime, but she didn't return my call! I don't get her at all! She emails me a couple of times a month at the most now.

Can someone please tell me why she is acting like this and what I should say to her? I need to get this off my chest if she continues this behavior. How can I bring this issue up w/o making her upset and "stressing" her out? Also, what should I say to my other good friend? They have both been fairly good friends up until they got to know about my problems with my husband more. They've both had issues with men in their life. They're both divorced and single now. Aren't friends supposed to be there for you when you're down?

I feel like no one really cares about me and I don't know why as I care about other people more than they care about me usually-