I got a 'work experience' placement at some shoe retail store, today was only the second day of working there and I already feel depressed. I've been feeling completely fine for about two months, but two days of the 'real' life, and it's back.
Even after the first day, I came home and cried. Today I came home, and cried. I literally feel like quitting already, but I can't.
I had an epiphany today that retail probably isn't for me. I'm just not a people person. I'm too shy, and people can see that. Yesterday the store manager was like 'you need to come out of your shell more', 'you need to be more confident'. And again today, the other store manager was like 'you need to start engaging with customers', 'you need to be more outgoing'. Yada yada yada. Like any of that actually helps me. NO. It makes me feel worse. I'm a sensitive person, I can't take things like that, I can't be confident. I don't believe that shyness can be cured. I'm really dreading going in tomorrow, I really never want to go back. Someone help me escape... I can't understand how people actually WANT to work.