Yesterday i went to my therapist and he said that my depression is getting worse, and my med. doc said the same thing. But my friends and my brother say im doing just fine. I want to believe my friends and brother, but something tells me that they are just saying that so i feel better about myself because lately my self esteem has been really low. My therapist has always been real honest with me and noticing these things is like his job so i believe him even though i dont want to. Im so confused.I want to be better but i dont want to do the work to get better. And all the meds just make me jittery, high, or more depressed. I have no idea what to believe or what to do. So I've been turning to si because i feel like nothing else will work. And i have tried to ask myself if i feel depressed or if im getting better, and my mind has been so scattered i cant come up with an answer.