Recently I decided to undertake working on healing my brain for a change, body, mind, spirit are all important, well the body and spirit were doing great, my mind however.. not so much.

SO i decided to stop hiding and being ashamed and scared of my thoughts/feelings and come out of the mental health broom closet so to speak. It's been interesting.

I approached my MD whom I had seen for 7 years now, she's seen the way I deal with my health, the changes I have done, but we've never discussed mental health what so ever as I have a Pdoc. Well. I asked for a referral to get a full psych eval and therapy as I am not doing so great and my Pdoc is great for pushing paper work and prescribing medications. She freaked. Told me to come back in two weeks. Said if I felt this way I should go to emergency. Thing is I was sharing every day symptoms, that I've had since I was about 7 years old!

Her treatment of me that day sent me into a downward spiral including SI. At the two week follow up appt, I wrote her a letter explaining how Iam feeling and what I need from her, as my doctor. She flipped again. I got upset, and rightfully so, and said that "this is F'ing pathetic, I'm F'ing outta here" to which I slammed the door open and left the entire building! In tears. I felt so abandoned. On the way home I get pulled over by a cruiser and two officers. She called the police on me. I was fine, I wasn't anything other than absolutely frustrated with a system that is not designed to help and I am getting tired of fighting with doctors. Anway, got pulled over, and questioned, and two more cars rolled in, THREE cruisers just because I yelled at her and stormed out of her office (oh and I ieft my husband in the room with her! LOL)

Today in the mail I get a registered letter that Ihad to sign for saying that she is no longer my doctor and non of her colleges in her clinic with service me, OR MY FAMILY! Like serious WTF!

I don't know whether to just let it go and focus on moving forward or at least file a complaint with the medical association.

What would you do?