Actually I think maybe the issue isn't that "when she refuses to tell me she cares about me even after I told her I need to hear it, this makes me doubt all of her caring gestures, and it makes me feel like maybe I can’t trust her or like I got tricked;" I think the issue is probably that the fact that I'm NOT supposed to call between sessions or do the things that elicited caring responses makes me feel like they weren't actually caring responses; either I manipulated them or I misinterpreted them.

If she had said, "Yes, I called you back between sessions because I cared about you [or even just because I wanted to help you]," that would have felt better to me. But the "I care about all of my clients" suggested to me that maybe I shouldn't have put her in a situation of having to respond to me in a way that would come across as caring, or like that wasn't really a caring response but just the way I read it (I mean, I did pay her for the phone session, and while it might have been a caring gesture, it might have also been a 'here's a way to make an extra $110 this week' gesture).

So maybe it's just that it's making me question my interpretation of her past actions and wondering if my own stuff is making me think she cares more than she does...