This morning I woke up and just felt like I can't cope with anything. I am constantly fearing my husband leaving me no matter how much he says he loves me.

I feel like I am a burden and worthless. I fear that his family judge me and I can't trust anyone.

I'm seeing the psychologist at the day hospital today and I am nervous about letting all the pain out and trying to deal with it even though I know I have too.

I also have an appointment with my works occupational therapy department next Tuesday and I'm afraid. I have organised a MIND mental health advocate to come with me so at least I'm not going on my own. I don't know when I will be well enough to go back to work and I feel like I'm no good to them anyway.

I feel l like my fear and sadness controls me. I wish there was a button where I could just turn my emotions off.