Hi Yearning. Just wanted to echo what Asia said - you are handling this so well. I am 45 and in a very similar situation and I know how much it hurts. I have gained so much from reading this post. I can relate to all the posts and it has really made me think about some deep issues I know I need to address too. I wish you well. You sound amazing. This is such a hard area to navigate with a therapist. Just wanted to say thanks to all - this thread has really made me think. xxx