When I had a 'breakdown' about 13 years ago, I longed for things to go back to the way they 'before'. I was pretty open about my feelings back then and I cried a lot. I also blamed myself ... I had been unnecessarily pushing myself (low self-esteem stuff) very hard and was way overextended prior to my collapse . So yes, I certainly was aware of what I had lost and grief was part of it. I had guilt to let go of, too.

With therapy and a support group I attend weekly, I am so much better now and for that I am very grateful. I can recognize when I am not where I want to be now but I no longer have to STAY stuck in the mire of negativity.

Thanks Gus - interesting thread.