I don't know if we all struggle with feelings like these or if we're merely a section of the BPD family, but I feel as though you read my thoughts. I struggle with these same thoughts and emotions all of the time! I try very hard ~ and always have...yet I have nothing to show for my efforts.

Other people that I've known barely give a thing of themselves and yet have more friends than they can handle! It feels cruel to me ~ yes, literally. C-R-U-E-L!! I have been the most understanding and supportive person that I've ever met in my life...ever!! Yet, I continue to be unable to make friends. I don't get it!

I'm not difficult at all. I'm very understanding and accepting of others ~ and I seem to keep my eye out to help those who may need someone to stand up for them. Yet, I have always struggled. After a good 30+ years, it's probably safe to say that I always will struggle to make friends despite my best efforts.