Ok so I wrote this a few months ago. Since then my issue hasn't really resolved. Since then I have decided to take a break from school because all of the different stressors were getting overwhelming. I decided to do an abroad wilderness course in India, followed by a medical internship. I'm hoping that I will gain some deeper personal confidence through surviving in the outdoors. But I'm still frustrated and feel completely trapped by myself. I'm just a 20-year-old dude trying to do what we're supposed to do best. It feels like there's no point pursuing women at this point since any time I actually get one interested I fail sexually. It's pretty maddening. I am talking to someone though. I'm just tired of feeling like a beta loser like I always have.