I have to masturbate since I am 32 and never had a girlfriend.I am to0 fat and ugly to have a girlfriend.I never had a girl that I know of to think I was attractive or wanted to be with me so I don't even try.I don't know what I would need to go or do to get one.I don't know of any bars or clubs in my town to go to and I have too much anxiety and shy to go up to a her anyways.I stay at home 99 percent of the time since I have no job.I have zero friends.I feel like I am some loser.I am 6 ft tall and 310 lbs so I would feel really awkward going up to a woman and think that I would actually have a chance with her.I dont even like myself how can I ask a someone to like me.People say that I don't want it enough which I don't understand why they say that cause I really want it more than anything I just don't think anyone would want me.There is nothing about me that someone would want.