Hey, there is absolutely NOTHING to be ashamed about! Those of us with BP have an illness. It's not really any different than diabetes. Our brains just don't make or handle hormones like they are supposed to, just like a diabetics pancreas doesn't make or handle insulin well.

Talk, talk, talk and then talk some more. Ask questions. Hopefully you can learn your triggers and learn to know when you're entering an "episode". Meds can and often do make a world of difference.