I had an odd experience once...I don't cry, but I was put in charge of a place I worked within a week of being hired, usually I am okay with just rolling with whatever for a while but this time I would come home and cry, I would ask "can I quit", I was really emotional about the stress/expectations. The odd comes a few months later, when it turned into one of the very best jobs I ever had, with some of the best relationships I ever developed. There may be something to letting yourself cry, to being uncomfortable, and hanging in there. Don't know. ...I would try to hang on till you find something else at least. ...I think it is OK to play a role for a while...sometimes it becomes your own, sometimes not---acting is a respectable job...who says you can't use those kind of skills in other lines of work?