thanks for the replies, i think all the time "what am i doing here? what if my parents need me?", they are 64 and 65 years old, they never had any health problems, but i think to myself that they might need me and im not there, that it might of been an unfair decision of mine to move away.
i rather not talk about it with my dad because he will get worried, i think to myself that this is just a phase, my mind is still at my house and i havent completely moved, but the feeling that i abandoned my parents will stay i think, i know i am 28, old enough to start a life on my own, its a normal thing to do, but still...
i am in a bedroom with 3 other guys, they are always happy and singing, etc, 1 of them kind of annoys me because he talks too loud and he has a strong accent wich i think is a bit annoying, after classes instead of coming to the bedroom i stay outside for a while alone, because i am a quiet person and i like my space, and i like to be alone, and this is a mess.
the training is 9 months, after that i will move a bit closer to my parents, about 2:30 hours away, i have to stay there for maybe 4 or 5 years till i get to move really close to my parents house.
i hope this is really just a phase, im going home tomorrow for the weekend, but the week, at least the one i just went through was hell, thinking about everything and the feeling of anxiety on my chest, i was able to sleep better last night and the night before, but during the day i am pretty much anxious and thinking about my parents...
and again, thanks for the replies.