I've been feeling extremely low this week and stressed out by many tasks at school. This combination results in getting very little work done, and more stress. I physically can hardly breathe. It's hard to smile and it's physically hard to talk. My chest feels heavy. I don't know how I got to this point, because it's been a while since I've felt quite this low. All day my thoughts have been flooded with self harm and suicide. It's been a while since I last cut myself and I don't want to start again... Plus it would be harder to do in a college environment. My suicidal thoughts have been especially strong. I've been thinking about it nonstop all week. I just started seeing a new therapist and she told me that if I were feeling suicidal I should go to the nearby mental hospital..... Even though I'm feeling suicidal I don't think I have the means to make an attempt so I'm not sure if I am a danger to myself. I don't know if I'd ever voluntarily admit myself to the hospital. I just agreed to it because I didn't want to come up with another suicide plan. I'm just so sad and I don't know how to get rid of how I feel because when I used to feel this way I would always cut and now I don't know what to do. I would go to sleep but I have so many things to do.