hang in there, do you have a therapist or doctor you can talk to about this. I know it is hard but you have to fight this. Have you read the recent post about an article on anorexia. If you haven't I'd strongly suggest you read that. Also keep in mind that even if you lost weight you would still feel fat and ugly. It doesn't matter how thin you get you will still FEEL fat, you will still SEE fat, and you will still want to lose more weight. In fact, the more weight I lose, the more fat I see on myself in the mirror.

You really should talk to a T about this though.

Good Luck

(((((hugs)))))