I only had local anesthetic but I actually kind of... I mean I'm wondering if I just tripped onto some kind of phobia that I never knew I had.
My response to all this just makes NO sense to me and I'm really uncomfortable with my entire reaction to the whole situation.
I've had a lot of medical procedures and such where it's really not that deeply upsetting. Someone suggested the possibility of a phobic response, but I'm not sure I buy it. If so... I don't want to encourage it, and I don't know what to do about it.

But I know nothing about phobic issues. Is this what a phobia is like?
I felt like I was being tortured, but it wasn't the pain that was an issue.
I felt like a wild frightened animal. I've never been in a situation where I was so scared I was wimpering beyond when I was a very small child.

I'm not trying to be melodramatic- I do actually feel my response to the situation was way beyond reasonable but it doesn't really change that it was my response and I had no control over it. I'm supposed to have more work done, including removal of my wisdom teeth.

Because I've had head trauma I may actually have to be awake for it.
So... that should be a lot of fun if so?

I want to just pretend this is nothing but I don't think it's "no big deal". Today was totally disturbing.

I don't know what to make of it.
I hate my brain.