I spend most of my life in auto pilot, having no idea what would make me laugh or smile again. When I get stuck so long there that NOTHING sounds like fun, I have to try to what USED TO make me happy before I got stuck. Like, my favorite funny movie or music that put me in a good mood. And alot of times I even have to force myself to do those things . But most of time, if I can make myself take that first step, I'll end up kind of enjoying it. My kids sometimes have to literally drag me out of my comfort zone to do things , & I may even get mad at them for making me go but after awhile I'll find myself having fun. Once I break through that barrier, I'll start to feel better. The longest journey starts with one small step.