I have struggled with self-esteem issues ever since I can remember. I used to think I was fat when I was a kid when I really wasn't. A few years ago when I was with my ex- boyfriend, my mother asked me while giving me a lecture about how he sucked, "What's with the weight gain?" I felt so horrible about myself after that, and since then I've though I was fat and I hate my body. My now boyfriend says I'm not fat but I think I am. I can't wear tight clothing or I feel disgusting. I wear big baggy jackets and I have like one pair of pants that fit me right now only because I got them from Goodwill. I don't want to buy anymore clothing because I want to fit back into my old clothes. My self-esteem isn't really limited to just me feeling fat, but this is my main concern. I really just hate the way I look right now. In highschool I was much thinner and wore a size 4 or 6 pants, now I wear like a 10 or bigger. This junk has really gotten me down lately, and my mother isn't helping matters. She says she doesn't know why my self-esteem is so low and I don't bother to tell her anything. Nobody understands me anyway.