Also, I know I probably didn't do anything wrong, but part of me still feels super guilty and like this is my fault and I'm ashamed to even bring it up with her in case she (inadvertently) reinforces that. It's just scary to be that vulnerable when I don't know what kind of response I'll be met with. Especially since when I brought this up in the first place, which was really vulnerable for me, it did not feel nice at all.