Hello ready2makenice: I'm sorry you feel so alone & unlovable. I peeked at your homepage & you seem to have quite a few friends here on PC. You know, you do deserve to be happy. You don't have to do anything to deserve it. But happiness comes from within, not from the outside. So it doesn't matter if everyone seems angry & annoyed. Maybe they are. Or maybe this is just your perspective, which is being distorted by your sadness. But either way, true happiness will come from within; not from these other people. Of course, I realize this is easy to say; & I fail at finding happiness within as often as I succeed. So I guess I'm a good one to talk (LOL!) But although I frequently fail at finding happiness within as well... I do know that this is where it comes from & it's the only place worth searching for it.