Dude, you were a kid! Cut yourself some slack, you're barely into adulthood as it is. And needing someone is so normal, just spend time on these boards, you'll lose count the amount of people who depend on their therapist or see them as parental figures. There is nothing wrong with any of that. We often regress in the therapy room.
As long as you're turning up and making an effort to some degree, you're not failing.