It's not hurting me anywhere near as much as it's hurting her.

This is a problem with society. From birth, we're taught that empathy is bad. That's why you're acting like this. I've worked hard to be empathetic, and I still suck at it. But at least I try. I try to be depressed, because that's how she feels. And I am depressed. But not nearly enough. I deserve to be raped in prison, not her.