Damajdancer, your therapist and pdoc are trained in recognizing the symptoms of depression. Do your friends or family members know what signs to watch out for? You stated how confused you are feeling and how your self-esteem has slipped. There's a reason why your experiencing this. A discussion with your therapist concerning SI, your thoughts, and feelings about all of this can only help. Let's hope with the help of your therapist, you'll be feeling less confused and will be able move forward in the right direction.

Pomegranate, your post was great. Much of what you said I related to so well.

Well wishes to you both.