(((((Freewill))))) I understand what you are saying about church. I sit in church and my hands become sweaty, I notice my breathing, I feel like I will throw up....it is uncomfortable. Did you try a church that is large? Maybe a smaller church might be better or maybe an evening service might be better where there is less people. Just a thought.

How about volunteering somewhere? Maybe a soup kitchen, hospital, library....something where you can give even an hour of your time. That might be an option.

I am not sure about your status of physical health but maybe an herb garden in your house? I tend to put myself into quilting...I like to sew. Is that an option for you? How about going to the local library or bookstore for an hour or so and look at books? You could travel and never leave the area!! It is quiet there and everyone keeps to themselves.

I wish I had more ideas or help for you Freewill. I so enjoyed our talk the other night and look forward to chatting with you more.

Just remember people here care about you!
Snow