Thanks guys,

Session with Psychologist was painful but useful. I feel I need to face some of my fears and avoidant behaviours so the emotions stop controlling me so much!

Sometimes I just wanna hide away like a hermit!

With regards to work I just don't know when I will be better to go back. I know I am going to ask for a phased return. Yesterday I spent a lot of the afternoon and evening crying and not wanting to go out with my husbands family cos I felt they might judge me and dislike me.

I did go out though and managed ok so I am facing things day by day.

I wish I could just turn off my feelings!!!!!