Hi all - this is my first post - I've been suffering on and off from depression for years and I'm in the mist of another depressive episode. This one feels the worst so far. I'm 37, married, with no children (we've been married 2 years). I think there is more going on than *just* depression as I'm constantly having racing thoughts that keep me from being able to sleep and do much of anything really. I feel like I'm having a nervous break-down and don't know what to do.

Here's where things get really complicated: my husband is Greek and we live in his small home village in Greece (500 people). I moved here 3 years ago for him and thought a peaceful life in a cute village would be magical. It turns out it seems to be a disaster for me. I can't full communicate (I can get by, but I certainly couldn't even attempt therapy in Greek, nor could I join any support groups, if there were any around), I don't have a lot of friends here, I don't really have work here (again, b/c of the language issue and the terrible economy), and I just feel so isolated and far away from everyone I love. Part of me thinks I should go back to America for a bit and try to get some intensive therapy and be around people I love, but when I think of that, a negative voice pops up in my head that says, "You will feel just as lonely there because you won't have your husband and during the day everyone will be working so what will you be doing???"

I just feel so TRAPPED and I have NO idea what to do. I'm not sure if anyone has any suggestions, but anything would be appreciated.