Hi, all. I know this is an older account, but I really had no idea what was going on with me when I was on these forums the first time.

Anyway, I'm 26 years old and have ultra-rapid cycling Bipolar II and my fiance has rapid cycling Bipolar I. We were both anti-med and generally anti-treatment for a long time. Then on Jan 21st of this year, I 'woke up' from the worst catatonic depressive episode of my life to find my fiance hospitalized for mania with psychosis. I was so far down I didn't even comprehend that the police were at my house, or that he was being taken away. To say that woke me the hell up to the fact we had serious problems would be an understatement. As they say, De Nial is not just a river in Egypt, and denial kills. We're both on meds now and seeking other forms of support, which brought me back here.