dear t. i'm sitting here irrationally mad at you right now for no reason at all and wanting to cancel my next appointment and feeling mad at myself for even scheduling it. what is wrong with me?! I am so all over the place - one minute I think if I had the money, I'd want to talk to you twice a week and then the next minute I'm all f this I can take care of myself. Yeah, well we've seen how well that works out right? i'm not going to cancel.