Yes, purplesecrets, I hear you, and what you are saying makes sense. Most self-injurers hide what they do, and I think for very similar reasons. It particularly makes sense for trauma survivors, who have had to keep the secret of the abuse, and now keep the secret of their self-abuse. It's something that you can control. But do you really want to be an abuser, even if you yourself are your only victim? There are other ways to have power. You never have to tell anyone that you don't want to, but I do hope that you can get help so that you can start living a life free of abuse of any kind.

TC,
Rap