Yeah, I'm taking a full 18 credits and that's a lot especially when you feel like this... But for my degree program I need to be a full time student and my family always says "fight through it" I feel like I either need to be here and take a full credit load, drop out altogether, or change my major completely, which would involve probably leaving my school anyways.

I've never been to a mental hospital, I'm not afraid of it, I just don't really want to take the time to go because if miss too much. I almost went once in high school but I didn't want to be away from school. I also have reservations about going voluntarily. I feel like if I go it should be involuntary?

Fortunately I was eventually able to get out of bed and finish everything I had to yesterday. Even though it's the weekend and I finished all my big assignments and studying I feel some kind of impending doom in my gut. I'm just never good enough for myself.